I love that some people love to read my writing. That makes me feel very special. However, what I REALLY love about being back on the blog is the writing itself. I know that somewhere deep inside me there is an author of something more than that one journal I had published in Middle Ground. Yet I also know that person isn't going to come out of me until I make time to write... and that is probably not going to be until my kids are a little older. Or who knows. Maybe it will NEVER happen because if I am not making the time now, who is to say I will make the time later when life will be equally as hectic in other ways (bball games, practices, choir concerts, overnights, etc.)
So anyway, I am happy if you are happy that I am writing today but I am HAPPIER (no offense) for myself to be WRITING. Writing is one of the few stress relievers I have and when I don't write, logically I am more stressed. I don't always come in with a plan, even though my blog was set up to have a weekly one, but perhaps my subconscious plan is always to clear my mind.
So it's summer, and I am back. There. I state this boldly with every doubt in my mind. However, I have determined that I am going to make the most out of this summer and try to knock out as many to-dos as I can, so I am going to record my days through SHORT posts and pictures.
I counted 77 days of summer. That's a lot of time. Why then have I felt like it is almost ending since the moment school got out? Probably because I went right back to work to get more stuff done, and I still have many days of schoolwork to do. Probably because I have another new prep next school year to prepare for. Probably because every summer is over so quickly that I always look back and think, "What did we even DO?" Probably because I have two little boys to entertain both for their sake and mine.
Today is Monday, June 10th. Ok, that's a lie. It's Friday the 14th - Happy Flag Day! I was going to lie to you and pre date this entry because I am OCD about putting posts in order, but I guess it is also good to admit that the first time I MADE time to post about my week was at the end of it.
The only way to make a real change (and a change is what I need) is to openly admit what is going on and be truthful about life behind closed doors. So I am opening my doors in hopes that what I write is something I can be proud to call my summer vacation of 2013. Granted, I won't be doing any monumental tasks and the likelihood of that trip to Monterey, California is pretty slim.... so I probably won't be doing much in the way of traveling either, but I am an ALMOST full time stay at home mother over the summer, and I want to do a good job at that job AS WELL AS try to improve my health, the feel of our home, my teaching career, and most importantly - my areas of disorganization. This may not seem like a lot to some of you - and it probably really isn't - but if I don't document what I have done, I might not feel obligated to WORK at it and I definitely won't reflect on it nearly as much.
Having said that, my goal is to do a quick update answering these questions every day:
What did I do today for:
- William
- Landon
- Our Home
- My Health (Physical, Mental, Spiritual)
- My Students
- Others
Since it's NOT Monday, I am going to go back and create a blog for as many days of the week as I can before I hit the hay tonight. Wish me luck on this venture.
Thanks for reading.
And she's back :)
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